Monday, January 9, 2023


 

The Artist’s Path and the Prescott Elks Theatre present TEA WITH ZAZA the story of Florence ‘ZaZa’ Roberts who opened the Elks Opera House in 1905.    Don’t miss this roller coaster journey into Arizona’s past as ‘ZaZa’, first lady of theatre in San Francisco, relives her losses, loves, failures and triumphs.  Veteran actress Gail Mangham reprises the role 17 years after its premier at the Sharlot Hall Museum’s Blue Rose Theatre, 13  years after the restoration of the theatre and 118 years after ‘ZaZa’ herself took the stage of the Elks Opera House as it was called in the beginning.  Talkback with the actor and playwrights Parker Anderson and Micki Shelton

One performance only in the Crystal Hall on the third floor of the Elks Building in Prescott. 117 E Gurley St,  Sunday, Feb. 19, 2:30 PM House opens a half hour before. Tickets $20 Go online to https://ci.ovationtix.com/36295/production/1148035?performanceId=11214859 or call 928 756 2844

Proceeds to support the fall 2023 production of Micki Shelton’s LA POSADA, a piece that takes you on the journey of this venerable hotel in Winslow AZ.  One couple of vision saw potential where others saw a derelict building ready for the wrecking ball.  Watch for updates in the coming months.

Saturday, October 15, 2022

Rant on Obama’s Midterms--Doesn't really matter which, as nothing has changed as of today, October 15, 2022 two weeks away from Biden's first midterms.





Ah I shall put in my morning 2 cents and just remember this is after only two sips NOT cups of coffee, either of which is not conducive to civil discourse. I always appreciate the optimists in my life even if I tend to hang out at the other end of the spectrum. Have a bit of pity for me please, a liberal Texan living in red AZ and even redder Yavapai County. SO the Marching Morons take control while scientists shout themselves hoarse in an attempt to rescue our perspiring/expiring planet. Religious fanatics keep us in the Dark Ages. Inclusiveness and Compassion go begging at the locked aeries of Big Money. Now that President Obama is the lamest of ducks and the GOP controls Congress, will the gridlock ease now that they can call the shots and their nemesis will be kicked to the curb in two years? OR will they simply squabble, posture, drag their feet, obfuscate and fill the air with inane pontification while all of us burn both literally and figuratively?

And the electorate, such as it is in terms of % of the population. Will they ever bother to educate themselves? It is a mystery to me how on earth TV ads (Thank God I don't have TV) and the vast amounts of money spent on them could actually influence people to vote! How can a robo call, someone knocking on my door possibly get someone to the polls? We are a nation of imbeciles putting blind trust in people, powers, and institutions that don't merit that trust. Yet we blithely hand over our very existence to them. Without inclusion, compassion, and an educational system that would attract the sons and daughters of even the wealthiest and most gifted among us as well as those who need the greatest assist-- without intelligent, thoughtful elected officials who have an idea of how terribly complicated every aspect of our world is-- who listen deeply with the possibility of understanding another viewpoint and shifting their own-- who have the balls to speak truth to power, tell Big Money to hit the road Jack and don't come back no more, no MORE!...Without all this and so much more, well Doom seems an inadequate word to describe where we are headed. Hell is anemic! Hell in a Handbasket even more so! Apocalypse...hmmm. Let's face it; nothing works. Barring the wandering asteroid that might take us out, we need only look in the mirror to find the author of our extinction. And now more coffee please!

Democracy is indeed hard work. Or should be.

Post Script  Found this while cleaning up computer files; so on the blog it goes for posterity.

 

 

 

Idle Thoughts 

 

Years into adult hood I realized that I would have cherished dinner table conversations—well on anything really—but especially on current events, ideas, beliefs.  The one time my husband and I tried to take a sort of exploratory/historical/academic  approach of the text of the New Testament in a suburban Methodist church in Houston, we were told that the Sunday School class wanted a charismatic approach…their word.  This was back in the 1970’s.  Fair enough.  But the effect of that experience has been long lasting.  Grew up in the Southern Baptist church, Father’s family was Catholic, Husband comes from a long line of Methodist preachers, hence the Methodist church home mentioned above.  The minister there was the first minister I’d met to that point who seemed like a human being on a path that was ever evolving and that his search grew out of the many facets of the Self as fully human.  I can still see him sitting on a chair in the fellowship hall, unconsciously tearing an empty Styrofoam  to bits as he searched for the rights words to precisely express himself.  Pontification was not in his DNA.

 So I continue to hunger for learned discourse  among men and women of faith-- and of no faith --who simply seek to grapple with the mystery of humanity.  These men and women have another characteristic that I so admire.  They do not ask and certainly do not demand that I join them in their belief.  But they do share their thoughts freely, without strings, without thinly veiled criticism without calling me an Infidel.  And then wonder of wonders someone in this group, after articulating his/her thoughts, turns to me and asks, “And now tell me about your own beliefs, thoughts—your own evolution.”  And he/she listens…What a remarkable fantasy!

Thursday, December 17, 2020

I Do Wonder...

 


 

The other day a friend suggested I write something for this blog.  It is fair to say I’ve be thinking of writing something since the pandemic began, but there is a kind of resistance or inertia that prevents me from doing so.  Then yesterday one of my sons asked me a couple of questions:  What's on your mind these days? What looks like something worth your attention? Good questions those, but do I answer them honestly or BS my way through?

I am by nature a wonderer and yes with an ‘o’ and not an ‘a’ is in wanderer, though if you look back on my life I’ve done a good bit of wandering, including from birth to the present relocating over 50 times.  Blessedly since the summer of 2007 we have been in the same house.  The second longest stay was seven years in Vermont.  Surely that would make a great movie title, though not as exotic as Seven Years in Tibet.  Ah I digress, one of my favorite pass times or as a professor once called it-chasing alligators.

 

                        Chase actual alligators??  No thank you! I'll cruise the stacks or surf the net.

I wonder constantly.  If I had a nickel for every time I use those two words I would indeed be wealthy beyond imagining.  Well do allow me that one, ahemmmm, slight exaggeration.  Can’t promise others won’t follow.

So, I wonder.  Indeed I even wonder why I wonder! But let’s not go there.

My earliest, clear, indelible memory of wondering goes back to the fifth grade.  One afternoon at Travis Elementary in Houston Texas, I found myself alone in my classroom.  The afternoon sun bathed the room in bright light drenched in dust motes that danced around my hands as I held them up.  A moment later my focus shifted to my hands--small, short fingers, smooth skin.  I found myself wondering what they would look like in old age.  Would the veins rise up creating a landscape of blue mountain ridges, rivers, and creeks?  Would the knuckles wrinkle; the skin dry?  Sixty-six years later the answer to these wonderings is a resounding yes.

 

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I drive my long suffering husband nuts on car trips-- I wonder what is growing in that field.  I wonder what the population of this little town is. Wow, look at that tree I wonder how old it is, how hold that pueblo is, why people can’t think of others and wear masks during this pandemic—on and on.  Sometimes my husband tries to respond to my query.  But these are not really questions. They represent unquenchable curiosity about everything.  They are thoughts escaping my inner universe, finding voice in ‘I wonders’.  If my smart phone connected to the internet on road trips, I could find out (maybe), but then I would miss the next ‘I wonder’ moment while my head is bent before the oracle of Google.

 


So what is worth my attention?  I am an equal opportunity ‘wonderer’.   Nothing too miniscule or anything too immense escapes my voracious appetite. The how’s, how much’s, how many’s, what’s, why’s, when’s, who’s, which’s—they all fall prey to my urge to know, to understand.

In my back yard, I wonder what the birds are saying, why the mole is so afraid to peek out of his hole, how the ten baby quail wound up in our drainage culvert, how the chipmunk can move so fast, why the lizard does pushups, what attracted the snake to our front door, what would I see if the wind were colored, if trees communicate, do plants really hear me sing, if so, does it scare them or fill them with joy, why is the tail of one squirrel visitor scraggly and the other bushy, what’s going on in the rabbit warrens, indeed all the animal warrens, why the colors of autumn fill me with achingly sweet nostalgia.

On the plaza of downtown Prescott, Arizona, my wondering changes focus, as the historical aspects of this mountain town prick my curiosity.  As I stand in front of the Bucky O’Neil statue I wonder what this area looked like two hundred years ago.  What early indigenous person walked right here and why—searching for food, water, enjoying the unfettered view of Thumb Butte, I wonder what they called Thumb Butte, what were they wearing and most of all what were they thinking, feeling…The ‘I wonders’ tumble forth and the busyness of Whiskey Row disappears as my imagination reconstructs the landscape of the past.


 

In the near past, so many of my ‘I wonders’ could be answered by Elisabeth Ruffner who came to Prescott in 1940 from Ohio.  Her insatiable curiosity and commitment to her new home shaped her into a walking encyclopedia of all things Prescott. Her passing in the spring of 2019 just short of her 100th birthday was a great loss.  I wonder if in the future we can download a person’s experience, memories, knowledge.  Perhaps not a good idea.  We humans do manage to warp ideas into something unsavory.  Perhaps this notion would just be all to intimate.  I do wonder nevertheless.   I do miss her.  I do wonder how so vibrant a person can just cease to be.  I miss her, but this is not an ‘I wonder’ why.  I know why.

          Elisabeth F. Ruffner
 

Living five years respectively in KSA (Kingdom of Saudi Arabia) and twenty years later in the UAE (United Arab Emirates) really put my ‘I wonders’ in overdrive.  There’s nothing like living in a foreign country to set the mind afire with questions.  Despite reading AT THE DROP OF A VEIL by Marianne Alireza, a California woman who lived 12 years in a harem in Saudi Arabia and attending orientation sessions given by the Arabian American Oil Company’s  (ARAMCO)headquarters in Houston, I was really unprepared for my introduction to a world unlike any I’d ever experienced. 

It seemed to begin in our stopover in Paris.  As I wandered around the city taking in the sites, men kept offering to help me in some way—water, a seat, sitting next to me at the Eiffel Tower striking up a conversation.

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                                            Off to KSA with Stopover in Paris, July 1977

At the time I was HUGE, three weeks away from giving birth to my youngest child.  I wondered why all the attention.  And coincidentally or not all the men were dark skinned,  a rich deep brown.  I wondered if they thought I would be a great breeder as I proved already capable of the task.  One even said I was beautiful.  But then I wonder if they just thought I looked about to drop to the ground and give birth, offering their aid out of a bred in the bone desire to protect the gestational female of the species. I do wonder.

In KSA a year later an Arab man offered me 3000 riyals for my toddler.  I wonder to this day if he was serious.  I believe he was as sons are so highly valued in Arab culture.  But pitfalls abound when trying to communicate in broken English and broken Arabic.  Nuances of gesture, facial expressions, diction, tone were lost on me. 

So I was in a state of constant wondering in the kingdom.  I wonder if I heard him right, I wonder how children recognize their mothers when all the women are cloaked in black.  Yet, unerringly each child always finds his mother.  I learned later that the sway of the abaya, the length of stride, the shape of the shrouded figure all guide the little one to the correct black cloaked figure.  I wonder how the women handle the heat of black polyester head to toe in the blazing Arabian sun made even more unbearable as it shines down through the heavy humidity hanging over the Arabian Gulf, Persian Gulf if you’re in Iran.

                                                                      Saudi Women

I wondered how a society could accept the killing of a young girl by an uncle who raped her because she brought dishonor to the family.  I wondered how sand roses formed beneath the grey sabkhas (coastal flat areas),

 

                                                                                 Sand Rose, KSA

how that man can walk across the searing sand in thin sandals with no water, 

 

 

                                                              The Empty Quarter, KSA

why women in so many countries including my own are deemed inferior to men.  I wonder where, why, how and when that initial notion rose up.  I wonder when women of KSA will find equal footing and at what cost.

My years in the Middle East could give rise to a heavy tome of ‘I wonders’, but those years especially infused me with a deep interest in religion, political theory, politics, history, archaeology, psychology.  My wondering leads to reading, watching documentaries, talking to people especially my historian husband.  What I wish most I suppose is to sit across from someone over coffee and pick their brains.  I’ve had a few experiences like that, but not nearly enough.

I remember in the UAE sitting at a Starbucks with a friend.  After getting our drinks I said to her, “So tell me everything, from the moment you got off the plane in Mecca, KSA to your return to Al Ain, UAE.  Palestinian by birth with very good English she described the Hajj in marvelous detail.  As an infidel I would never be welcome there.  It is not a tourist attraction; it is a communion.  Moreover I hate crowds.  But my friend satisfied my ‘I wonder what the Hajj is like’.  


I spend many of my ‘I wonders’ on people.  I wonder where that wine merchant I met in Nice is now, how is Vijay, my husband’s assistant in the UAE, is he well, has he returned to India to retire, whatever happened to that Aussie who played King Phillip in A Lion in Winter which I directed in KSA, that young man who, near the back entrance into Camp Pendleton, killed another young man we found in the middle of the road, where is that Afghan man who helped me up an embankment in an oasis, my first heart throb in the fifth grade.   

                               

                                                                            Neal Mangham in UAE Oasis circa 2016

 

And then there is the forward leaning ‘I wonders'.  I wonder what my five granddaughters will be when they grow up, what heartbreak and joys they’ll face, will they remember me at all and if so how, I wonder what I’m doing right now that will live on in their memory.  I wonder if I will live long enough to see them all reach at least 18.  That means I have to manage 89, thirteen more years.   

               The Fab Five  Christmas in the UAE 2016
  

And that brings me to the more existential and cosmic ‘I wonders’.   I wonder why some people from virtually identical backgrounds thrive and others don’t.  I wonder if there are miracles.  Indeed I wonder what the definition of a miracle is.  Perhaps a miracle today is a humdrum part of daily life in the distant future.  I wonder.

I wonder if we will ever be able to time travel.  I am forever wondering what some historical figure would think if he or she could be in my present.  Recently I find myself wondering what Abraham Lincoln would think of the state of our union in 2020.  Oh how I wish he could be here, take a grand tour of the country and then sit down with artists, laborers, farmers, doctors, soldiers, inventors and perhaps President Obama--and of course me.  I promise not to wonder out loud.  


I wonder what the word infinite means.  I wonder how a word given sound from the voice box, expressed in letters and symbols can possibly describe the notion of something without end, without borders.  Every time I imagine an infinite universe and travel in my imagination further and further out beyond the solar system, the star

 systems in our neighborhood, galaxies    -- I find myself slamming against a border implying a delineation of an end at the  border and something beyond, but then can infinity have borders?  I do wonder what is out there beyond the limits of my imagination.  And I do wonder if humanity will survive long enough to probe beyond the last, hmmm whatever—but can there even be a last whatever??  I do wonder.


                                                                              Image of a  'Whatever'?

At these times I must rein myself back in, retreat from infinity, step by step until I feel anchored once more, back in my skin.  I look at my pores, the tiny sun bleached hairs, and my mind begins to navigate the ever diminishing size of the components that make up my body. Hydrogen atoms make up the smallest element, comprising nine percent of body weight. But is that the smallest? I wonder if there is an infinity to explore here, another step or two into a universe too miniscule to imagine.  

                                                                                       Hydrogen Atom
 

And I do wonder about my death—the day, the hour, the place, whether I’m alone or not, my last words, my last sound, my last vision, my last thought.  I wonder where this entity called Gail disappears to.  If my ashes are scattered in nature, will I give rise to new life, be a part of a bear seeking honey, a squirrel racing up a tree, a flower, an aspen quaking in the chill of autumn.  Could any part of the energy that makes up this me, could that become part of a new human?  I wonder.

I sometimes wonder if I’m alright with believing that death is an end, simply an end, no afterlife, with pearly gates, and a pantheon of gods, goddesses.  I think I am.  This life, however accidentally conceived, is a gift.  I can wish perhaps that I might have accomplished more with it.  But I am so grateful for what I’ve been granted whether by chance or design.  I do wonder what that infinitely thin border between being and not being is like.  Will there be a nanosecond of realization that this is it, that it is time for the next great adventure as my mother-in-law put it before her own passing?  Will there even be a next great adventure?  I do wonder.

                                                                                  The Future Me?  My Next Great Adventure?
 

Matt, I do wonder if this answered your questions. 

And Barbara Jacobsen, thank you for the nudge.

 


                                                                    Hokusai Katsushika (1760-1849)